relationships

I was with this boy for two and half years, this November would have been three years together. He ended the relationship because he didn’t feel the same anymore. Don’t get me wrong, i understand, we were different, we weren’t anywhere near how we used to be. But with that shouldn’t that make you want to stay with the person you “love”. In a matter of one night everything was over for him, everything we did for each other, everything that happened within our relationship didn’t matter all in the matter of one night. I just feel as if we were mature and our relationship was maturing the way it was supposed to. Not everyone you meet is going to like who you talk to or hang around, so you cant expect your girlfriend to be okay with it either. Maybe shes been through so much that trusting people is hard for her, you don’t just back down and give up on everything shes ever done for you. If she lost all her friends, put her fathers relationship on the line, and put up with all the dysfunction with your family then i feel like you should hold on to her as long as you can. Yes there will be times when one feels the need to be in control but that’s what relationships are, they are a balance of control, love, happiness, sadness, anger, and vulnerability. The relationship skills i have are more mature than most, but if you get married and your husband has all these social medias and constantly having half naked women on his phone its the same as cheating, you are not supposed to have those things or share any of that other than with the person that loves you. Unfortunately for me, i thought he loved me. I was fooled into thinking that he was different, that he cared about me, that he would put me first. Everything about us was unreal to me, i am very much broken after this and its just so irritating to know that someone who has been in my life since we were in the sixth grade just wants nothing to do with me as if i did something to him. This came out of no where and i just wish there was more than “i just don’t feel the same” but for now you can have your space and i can have mine and as long as i’m alive i will be your best friend, but now in this moment we are no longer infinite and we have noting special to share together. Im going to keep myself for my husband on our wedding day because i know when i find a MAN to love me and care about me i will have everything i need in life. I just hope you are happy. 

I hope you fall in love with a man with good music taste and a jawline stronger than your wifi connection

(Source: disheartens, via manda)